Who Am I?

Who am I?

I am a Redeemed child of God: growing in grace and in the knowledge of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ every day. It is about the personal relationship. It's about seeking God first. It's about calling on him for help before I mess up. It’s about forgiveness and Love.

I am a Sinner and a person who struggles with many things, my personal demons.

I am a Woman who loves love, peace, happiness in the smallest thing in the world.

I am a Wife who would and does do anything for the man to whom God has directed me too. Thank God for Mike as he is the perfect man, soul mate, lover, provider and friend that sustains all of my needs, even my need for God.

I am a Mother who has lost her children and struggles with the desire to have a child again. I have suffered 4 miscarriages of multiples and have buried my son, John Michael {April 23-April 24,1999}. I loved this child like no other and I know I will see my babies again.

I am a Daughter to two wonderful parents. I know that I am favored by my dad and loved by my mother. I know that my dad is changing in his mind and that my mother struggles and I pray for peace for the two of them.

I am a Sister to three. Colleen a great sister, a better mother, a good friend. Marc a brother that I love very deeply and wished I had a deeper relationship with, he is a good father, a good friend and a great brother. James, who I never had the privilege of knowing, but know that I love him the same and will see him again too.

I am an Aunt to 6 wonderful children, Damien, Derek, Hannah, Rachael, Holli and Isabel. I wish I had a greater relationship with Damien and Derek as they are my heart. I see Damien as the firstborn of my family as he was born 8 days after my marriage to his uncle Mike. I see Derek as an angel that God sent to our family one month after the death of my son. I see Hannah as the smart young woman who can do anything that she puts her mind to as long as she has someone help her with the common sense of life. I see Rachael as the very intuitive young girl who has the concerns of the world on her shoulders and needs to have peace in her mind to love herself the way she is. I see Holli as a sweet little girl that struggles to understand why she is treated by some as a little different, I see her strive for greater acceptance and I know she will struggle greater when she is finally told the truth about her beginnings in this world. I see Isabel as my Izzy, a darling little girl coming into her own and having no clue that her daddy treats her like an angel and different from her sister. These children are my children!

I am Non-judgemental, but if I do find myself making a judgement I seek God to help me in learning to be mindful that I do not know what is going on with anyone else's personal life, situation, relationships etc.

I am a Lover of food and I know that this love has lead to many enjoyable times and many emotionally stressful releases. My love has lead to many pounds that affect my health, therefore I know that surgery is the best option for me as my love of food will not change just altered as I desire this great change for myself and no one else.
I am Many things to many people, some love me, some do not. Those that do not, I respect them and pray for a change in their heart.

I am Me; a woman who enjoys life to the fullest of my ability, enjoys peace in my soul and calmness in my world.

I am...........